YAP_C0MPLEX

Too much of everything and very little for nothing I'm saying to no-one without a TL;DR filter.

3rd March 2026

"Why don't you take anything seriously for once?"

Simple. I can't. That's why.

No, actually. I'm not even fucking kidding, that's literally the reason. I'm simply not allowed to be serious if I wanted to or must be serious with something. 

Someone from a partnered Discord server—mind you, full of people who are mostly goofy and like to steer off one topic to multiple different topics—accused me of not taking anything seriously (which is false if we're talking about intentions), and I responded with these:

In servers like this, it's hard to even take anything seriously or try to say anything serious without someone going "tf is this dude on about" or some shit, so...damned if I don't take anything seriously and damned if I do.
I hate how it works like that, but that's sadly the Discord side of the internet. 🤷🏾‍♂️

And to be honest, that's not even a Discord-exclusive issue of the internet. It's rather something as a whole. 

Like literally, I'll say the corniest horseshit one time to play along with the rest of everyone just fucking around and obviously get shit on for it as if I was "intentionally not taking anything seriously", but any time I actually try to take anything seriously or be serious about anything, I also get shit on for it as if I "misunderstood the joke (that never was obvious for a naïve person like myself)". 

You can't really goofy on the interenet, but at the same time, you are just simply not allowed to be serious either nowadays because you're going to be made fun of or questioned heavily in the wrong way for it. Essentially, damned if you take anything seriously and damned if you don't. There just isn't no gray area for "locked the fuck in" and "fucking around", unless you count being deadass silent as an in-between.

Really, what the fuck happened to the internet, y'all? I've been welcomed already, but what happened to not holding someone on a high pedestal for this?

(This is also a staple of Reddit where if you take anything seriously, you get downvoted to hell, but you also get downvoted to hell anyways when you finally let up the seriousness.)

17th February 2026

You are never being 'dramatic' when you vent.

I'm not a psychologist or a therapist, but when it comes to venting about things that are on your mind which make you feel certain emotions, remember that venting about things is just as normal as the emotions you feel. I vent about things a lot, and that's normal. IRL or on the internet, I vent more than I rant.

But venting about things is not you being "dramatic" and shouldn't be compared to being dramatic. The difference between venting and being dramatic is that venting is just something natural that you do in response to the things that really irk you out, and being dramatic is simply a choice. The sad thing that makes venting a "choice" is not doing it, which is true. People don't vent (even in detail) because they think they'll be seen as being dramatic. 

But the truth is that it's not dramatic whatsoever. Just like how you shouldn't contain your negative emotions such as sadness within yourself, you shouldn't sugarcoat how you're really feeling. There's no such thing as naturally being "dramatic" when you vent about something.

Vent about the passing of your pet? That's not being dramatic. Vent about being kicked out of the house you live in from a family altercation? There's no "drama" in venting about that. Vent about how your school or job has treated you like shit? Where would being dramatic even play into that? 

Regardless of what you vent about, you're not being dramatic to any sane person whatsoever. However, not to have the silence-is-violence type of belief, but if you're not being open about the things that you should vent about, then that's just going to translate into the things being perfectly fine and that they don't bother you to an extent.

So when you vent about something, remember that you aren't being dramatic. You're just being open about it, and that's all that matters.

20th January 2026

Managing a Discord server is a hard challenge

You look at the title of this post (or it in its URL) and go "Is this based on...?" or "This is related to ..., right?", or the like.

If you have any sort of rhetorical questions like those, the answer that I can provide is yes. Of all things, managing a Discoed server that you own is a challenge. However, it's not just any challenge. It's one HELL of a challenge. I'm not really a stranger to managing a Discord server and it being a challenge, because apart from moderating people who are causing a disruption, I find it to be an allure. 

I own two Discord servers: one that started as a public shitpost server as "Flare's Memes" which later became "Monster Vibe Realm" and then "Voidstate of Venaphase" transitioning to a community server, and another which is a selective-access version of that for my friends. The beauty of it being a challenge that server management is allows me to find and improvise ways to make a Discord server better; not to make it a big server, but to potentially make it a bit more active than it is which inevitably will lead to more members. 

But sadly, there are a lot of gripes to managing a server. Not only do you have to constantly moderate it the more people there are and the less staff you have, but when it comes to just even a selective-access friend server like mine, there's still a beef duality involved. This duality is where one time all of your friends in the server are chilling in harmony, not causing a ruckus, but another time, one of your friends end up leaving the server because of another friend being in the server as well. As someone who's seen this happen with two people in both servers I own because of two other people, this would've been solved of both parties from each server actually talked things out to solve these differences, but sadly their beef (which I really hate to call it beef but I don't really know what word would match this sort of dislike between two people) will persist because they refuse to do so. With that, trying to manage a friend server in this regard isn't entirely impossible, but it's impossible if it means friends leaving because of friends.

31st December 2025

Tips, Thoughts, and Takes on the Music Scene

So, I'm asking this in every music server I'm in to get a better grasp on music. What advice/tips or even just thoughts overall do y'all have on music in general? When it comes to music taste, music sharing, labels, direction of the scene and its trends, or production and sample libraries. Everything I'm saying applies to non-producers too. I want EVERYONE's opinion.


Literally anything like "this is how I enjoy music" or "this is WHY I enjoy music" or maybe thoughts on disliking music? Mindsets, ideas, concerns too. And of course the production side. What DAW and why? Sample packs and plugins. Workflow tips. Mindset for being an artist, etc... Just anything and everything that comes to your mind when you think music. I want to learn as much as possible from everyone about this, so any little thing helps.

Someone from a Discord server asked these questions regarding music and music production, and I wanted to provide my inputs on it in the form of a rant. Yes I'm going to be using a lot of profanity here as this is a rant, so if you're sensitive from me saying "fuck", "shit", or "asshole" (as in a kind of person) more than once, you are free to stop scrolling past this bold-faced text.

Tips

As an Audience Member

* Enjoy what you like or love. Don't let anyone's opinion(s) on one thing prevent you from liking it. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, but they can't force you to share the same opinion as them.

* Support smaller creators from the underground (such as your friends) like you'd support mainstream creators who are playing shows and presenting at convention centers. Not everything is about the mainstream, so the underground also deserves light as much as you give it to the mainstream.

As a Creator

* You have a higher chance of releasing a track yourself rather than on a label because your creativity isn't limited.

* Make whatever you want to make, and release whatever you want to release. Sure, it's vital to listen to your audience, but don't make yourself their property by devoting everything you do to their "schedule" or demands.

* Only listen to your audience for serious aspects of your content and not for anything but.

* Always take constructive feedback, but don't appease assholes only because they don't like one smallass thing in whatever you've created. Unless you plan on turning it into something fully-fledged, you are not obligated to make changes in a 16-bar loop that you made for the sake of experimentation. The changes are only taken into consideration if the thing you made is destined to be a full thing.

* Use whatever tools you can get your hands on however you want to use them, not whatever people demand you to use in a way they expect it to be used. If you want to use FL Studio Mobile, go for it. If you want to apply OTT on the master track with maximum expansion (upwards compression) and maximum [downwards] compression, your call. If you want to extremely squash your entire mix into a clipper, who the hell is stopping you? You just need to know how to get creative with your tools.

* If there's no sign of a certain kind of music you are thinking of but want to hear, be the change you want to see and make that kind of music. It might not take off as a "known thing" in weeks, but give it time and you might make it go from a fake genre to a real genre, just like how Chime himself coined the color bass genre and how another producer coined the future riddim genre.

Takes on the Music Scene

Creation

### Tutorials

// When you really think about it, a majority of music production tutorial videos simply tell you how to make music with titles worded to make you think otherwise. They kinda just tell you the "right" and "wrong" ways of making music despite it being an open form of art for humans.

A lot of production "tutorial" videos I've watched are oftentimes videos that tell you what to do to make a certain genre of music in the "right" way. Some other videos I've watched [which are labeled as tutorials] are the exact opposite where it's just the person breaking down a small drop loop and not actually telling you how to make whatever the genre their drop was made under.

Do you get an insight of how someone made the track they're showing? Absolutely, since you can get to know what went in their head when making it. Do you actually learn *anything* from it? From my experience (or from the way I see it), no, because it's either you are obligated to do the same stuff the OP does, or you are left confused on what you could do for your own music because there's nothing to take away from it. The best that I could suggest is making music production tips that actually give the viewer ideas on what they can do for their own music without considering them as the "right or wrong way" of making music. 

### DAW's: The issue with DAW ranking videos

Oh yeah I have a moderate amount to say about this one.

// Ngl in my honest opinion, DAW ranking videos—unless it's made obvious in the title that you're ranking them based on your own opinion and not fictional "facts" that nobody provided—are actually cringe as hell. Stop encouraging people to quit their DAW they're used to using.

Very tough part of the meat to chew on, sure, but I don't think it should be uttered more than once when I say that DAW ranking videos and the "DAW wars" drama are all fucking garbage. All DAW's, while they function very much differently, are good at one thing: outputting and producing sounds in a laptop.

Sure, depending on its noticeable difference in feature sets of a DAW it could probably alter the way you make music, but going to the DAW of the latter will *never* improve or degrade your music compared to what you've made from the DAW of the former. I can say that as a person who's used Caustic 3 as my main DAW (on Android and Windows), I've noticed a drastic change in my sound after switching from Caustic to Tracktion Waveform because I can get to use 3rd-party plug-ins like instruments and effects and not be physically crippled of a low 14-track limit with only 2 effect slots per track, but after trying out Reaper for several days now (which you might've heard about me doing from my Notepin post), I can also confirm that my sound stayed the same between Waveform and Reaper. The only thing that changed is how I use a DAW with everything being different from Waveform.

When someone asks "What's the best DAW for people to use?", the answer should never be a specific DAW that's mentioned, but rather a question:

What DAW do you think is best for your own needs?

As a creator, there are multiple choices for DAW's, you just need to try them out based on what you do, what you want to do, and what you intend to get out of a DAW. That way, you don't have to be misguided by whatever someone else uses...which brings me to my other point: don't use a DAW just because someone else does. Yes, that DAW may look dope as fuck, and I get it. 

FL Studio looks dope as fuck. Ableton Live looks dope as fuck. Pro Tools probably looks dope as fuck despite the over-prioritization in the graphics using realistic images. Reaper looks dope as fuck depending on what theme you use. But the graphical looks shouldn't be the first thing that comes to mind when you choose a DAW. You have to focus on functionality and the UX.

### DAW's: The DAW's I've used

I've used Waveform for the past several years ever since the Tx era (specifically I used T7) as it was the first free DAW I came across. However, after noticing some issues with Waveform [that I've pointed out in said Notepin post: I went to Reaper as, despite being paid for only U$60, it has the WinRAR license for its trial where it doesn't get crippled of its functionality or features after it expires, but rather gives you a pop-up window telling you to purchase the DAW every time you open it (which you can simply close out, and it only opens once). That and it's one of those DAW's where it's the Linux of music production. You can literally theme it to where it looks like other DAW's, such as FL Studio, Ableton, and Audacity (not even fucking kidding, it's extremely customizable in all other regards as well).

Tastes

### The bullshit music ranking channels

There's a post from KETAMIND/FRVME PRFCT that I saw on Bluesky ( in which they said the following:

I will never understand music ranking channels

In the same vein I also never understood concept of them either (and still don't). I honestly think they are pretty pointless because...

// They just scream the same "My opinion about this DAW is an actual fact about the DAW, trust me bro" kinda energy where people think that the artist allegedly makes "bad music" only because of the opinions projected as "facts". Obviously nothing wrong with having an opinion. Just don't be a self-centered dick about it by saying that your opinionated observation about an artist is something that actually happens from the artist and admit that the music you're ranking isn't your kind of music. Artists owe you nothing.

- My quote-repost ( I very much stand by this take (I don't care if it's a hot take or not).

I'm sure that this has happened before it permanently ceased operations, but after the halt of Never Say Die Records, we've gotten into an era where people are doing "music rating" videos on artists' music, mainly on Disciple and Disciple Round Table. Some of these are genuine, but some are just on the Karen side of demanding. This portion is basically from "enthusiasts" who pretend like they know what they're talking about (which I also want to believe that they know what they're talking about) but really are just saying things about a track just to have an unneeded crashout over the intentional production decisions the artist takes.

This is not to say that having an opinion about something is "cringe" or anything, but you might as well be mocked for being an elitist as if you know much of what an artist you're "giving constructive feedback" knows...or at that point be that artist's ghost producer. Like dude what does a random-ass track you're "reviewing" have anything to do with "Dope-ass Clouds" being a slur you decided to make up? Everyone can like and not like things and say stuff about it, but sadly within today's society, it takes a lot of effort for a person to learn how to at least be respectful towards the artist and their work and it's an easy choice a person can make to be an ass about it. As much as I hate saying this as it comes off very dismissive, you can give actual constructive feedback on it, but if you're not the one making the music you're "reviewing", don't bother being an elitist know-it-all. None of the artists you listen to owe you anything, and they most likely don't even know you either.

### Why I listen to music

Ranting aside for a bit, most of the time I listen to music whenever I do anything such as gaming, making art, or making music (which is very odd considering that I need to HEAR what I'm doing), but sometimes I listen to music to take my mind off of stressful situations I've been through (which I might put in a playlist).

I also listen to music because I like hearing what people have been making of the genres I'm interested in, and I'm always itching to hear something I've either never heard of before or have missed out on.

Labels and Collectives

This might be a series of hot takes, but when it comes to labels, there are two things I hate in the regard.

### Limiting creativity of the artist

A lot of labels are pretty closed off from creativity. What I mean by this is that when you go and submit a track to a label for a potential release, it'd get rejected unless you make the changes to the track that mean making it sound from how you intended it to sound when you made it. In Paper Skies's Discord server, someone about his release "Operator" not getting on Disciple Afterlife vol. 2 mentioned that,

He had the opportunity to put Operator on v2 that color bass comp they did but he turned it down because they wanted him to make the first drop similar to the second drop and he felt like that would be too much of a gimmick.

...which made me come to the conclusion that in order to get a track released on a label, you have to sacrifice your creative decisions for the decisions of the label. Otherwise, it stays rejected. There might be some labels that don't have that mindset, but I hope that labels don't go this route of taking away creativity.

### Demands

After the shutdown of Never Say Die, Disciple—while I could somewhat understand because of it being an industry-standard/corporation-level label—has been held at such a high pedestal by their "fans", but I can't even consider these listeners as real fans because all they do is complain about every release they don't like (and it's a 90% occurrence that this shit happens without fail) and have the duality of saying that they "fell off". They have an ego inflated enough to be blinded away from the fact that Disciple owes them nothing, so they're going to keep putting out music from artists regardless. Again, no hate for opinions from the listener, but if it means being an ass, they have the option of going to another label. Otherwise, they can stop yapping up a nothingburger about how Disciple "fell off". I honestly do NOT feel bad if anyone gets offended by this as I'm getting pretty tired of seeing someone complaining about a deadass horse they hate but are too chronically-online to go elsewhere.

23rd December 2025

Potentially trying out Reaper?

For some of you guys who've listened to any of my music or remixes of original music, sound design sessions, or just instances of me fucking around and making pure bullshit, the DAW that I've mostly been using is Tracktion Waveform, which has been serving me quite a bit since Tracktion T7 was around. However, I've had thoughts about giving Reaper a go. 

"Dear god Focal why are you trying out (or even switching to) Reaper of all DAW's?"

The Issues

I've been thinking about trying out Reaper since (1) it's customizable from what I've seen and heard, and (2) I've been experiencing some issues with Waveform; some of which either aren't fixed in different versions of Waveform (yet or at all), are introduced in said versions, or appear in other DAW's. The issues of these that I have are the following:

- Audio clips with auto-tempo enabled will "stutter" whenever the BPM is being automated. [Not a computer or project file issue as someone from the Tracktion Discord server suggested. Dysjoint from the server suggested using proxy files, but that's not a feature the free version have. Further testing proves that this is an issue specifically affecting MP3 audio files. WAV files seem to be fine.]

- Scrolling through an audio clip without moving the position of the clip itself and releasing MOUSE1 (left mouse button) while hovering over the browser (or the left side of the window) from the playlist causes Waveform to permanently hang until force-closed. [This issue was not in major versions 11 or 12 but was introduced in major version 13. Dysjoint had pointed this bug out on their YouTube channel once but the video isn't available, though I did find a KVR post with them mentioning it and the dev, Figbug, suggested providing a crash log which wouldn't work as this "crash" doesn't occur from just force-closing a process. The issue was put into v13 and never got patched to my knowledge.]

- Certain stock plug-ins would cause Waveform to crash. [One time I tested this in v12 with a delay for no reason by setting the time to 0 and it crashed Waveform (more on that further down). However, with the micro sampler (which can barely be automated), it tends to crash Waveform randomly for no reason whenever I use it.]

- Audio inside audio clips with either auto-tempo or auto-pitch enabled tend to shift themselves out of the initial position you've set them whenever you trim or cut them. [This might not be terrible when producing, but when it comes to making mixes, this becomes very intrusive.]

- (Re)loading too many audio clips with either auto-tempo or auto-pitch enabled will not only crash Waveform, but rather hard crash your computer. [This happened several times to me, but the most recent instance was when I was making a mix and I changed the BPM at a specific point by accident, and my laptop abruptly rebooted itself from each audio clip being reloaded all at once. I didn't get a BSOD either.]

- Setting the delay time (aka length) to 0ms crashes Waveform. [Not a major issue as I have no reason to set a delay's feedback time to 0ms, but this was still weird to me. Other plug-ins that have a delay/echo effect—including the stock 2-tap delay—allowed me to set the delay time to 0ms with no issue, but the legacy delay, which was a 1-tap, didn't. It wouldn't get reset to the minimum length of 1ms or whatever; it'd just crash Waveform entirely. This issue wasn't present in major version v11, but rather introduced in v12 before being patched in v13.]

- Having at least a large amount of tracks in a project file, regardless of the presence of plug-ins (stock and 3rd-party) will cause a noticeable slowdown of Waveform. More tracks being added makes this issue more prominent. [After watching Nasko's Bitwig streams on YouTube, I've learned that the Ableton devs apparently don't really give a shit about this issue and have no interest in resolving it, and then he proved that it's just Ableton Live and not just his computer by doing this exact test in both Ableton Live and Bitwig to where the latter still holds up and the former let's up. I curiously went to test this with Waveform and I saw the issue appear in v12 and v13. v11 has a 400 track limit which I never knew about, so I couldn't test it there.]

There are some other issues I had also experienced, but these were the only ones that I could remember from the top of my head. I'll update this post if I ever find those other issues.

Why I'm not Completely Switching to a Different DAW

Like with not fully rebranding to "FCL C0MPLEX" or fully switching to Affinity over paintdotnet, I'm not considering a full-on switch from Waveform to Reaper if I end up liking it, but it seems like a cool paid (U$60) DAW. Before using Waveform (or rather Tracktion T7 as it was before), I had planned on switching from Caustic (mobile DAW) for making music due to how very limited it is. 

In a similar situation with Nasko, I have several projects from Waveform that I either have to finish or want to turn into full songs, and unless I convert those to Reaper project files, a hard switch isnt of the possibility.

Why Reaper and Not FL Studio or Ableton Live

1. Check Nasko's first Bitwig 6 stream on YouTube for details on Ableton Live.

2. When it comes to FL Studio and Ableton Live, users of those DAW's seem to be shills enough to where you're damned if you use anything but the DAW they use. So as to not be one of those shills, I'm not using a shill DAW.

Again, I've already heard of Reaper at the time for its customization compared to other DAW's (according to the media, and it sounds like it's the "Linux" of music production), but I never tried it out since it's paid "and I mostly use paid software". As mentioned, it's listed for U$60 (one-time purchase) for a license, but I can trial it for approx. 2 months (30 days) before it expires. 

What makes this interesting as a DAW—which is why people are saying that it's "free" in free beer—is because while Reaper technically isn't free, its free 60-day trial (which matches the full functionality of Reaper) still expires, but it doesn't expire in a way such that the functionality isn't stripped down. This means that I'm still able to use the trial without paying, but that just means being asked to pay for a license every time I open Reaper. It's essentially got the WinRAR license where the trial expires but it doesn't get crippled of its features, which I honestly like.

/fin_

In conclusion, I'm not considering a full-on switch to Reaper as there are some things in Waveform that I want to do finish (or actually start), but I'll try it out at some point, and also try out some tool called Dawvert which is advertised to convert project files saved from one DAW to project files for another without altering the actual content of the project file.

22nd December 2025

Every Yearly PIX Episode by Name

what year corresponds to each compilation episode:

- 1: Wrap-up

- 2: Best-of

- 3: Based

- 4: Annihilation

- 5:  Quintuple

- 6: Shellshock

- 7: Illumina


14th December 2025

Nationality Flags

I had this very random thought while I was in the bathroom watching a try not to laugh meme compilation from The Meme Sheep.

If there are country flags, province/state flags, city flags, and pride flags, how come there aren't nationality flags? I mean, there's—for example—the flag of Canada, the flag of Ontario, and the flag of St. Catharines, so how come there isn't a Canadian nationality flag?

I mean, sure, you could use a country flag to indicate your nationality, but that implies much more than just your nationality.

"What's your nationality?"
// Shows the flag of France
"You're French?"
// No, I'm Finnish. I just live in France.

Y'know? 

11th December 2025

Pennies = Luxury?

In my university chemistry class, my instructor mentioned to us about pennies and the industry completely halting on minting them, so people who still have pennies lying around would be one of the "luckiest" to have something that would otherwise be impossible to find or acquire because the industry stopped minting pennies.

This made me realize that pennies could be seen as luxury more than as some basic-ass "souvenirs" that you only purchase for display. As a child, I've heard of the "lucky penny" trend where you'd be given 24 hours of good luck for every penny you find and pick up, and I think this might've predicted pennies not being minted anymore.

I guess the follow-up question would be this: how much do you guys think pennies are worth after they've stopped being minted? Like, if you for whatever reason sold these pennies that you had lying around, how much would they sell for as rare "assets"?

11th December 2025

For those wondering whether or not me (Focal Flare) and FCL C0MPLEX are the same person...

Yes, I am also "FCL C0MPLEX". I'm not really considering a rebrand from "Focal Flare", so I'm using it as an alternative alias. I'm still going to be called "Focal Flare".

However, 

I found out that while some people call me "Flare" because it sounds cute to them, most people just call me "Focal" for ease of access, which tbh I'd also call myself "Focal" as well, so I agree. Plus, the event of me—after rebranding to "RomanFox2"—using "Focus Fire" as my alias as a result of somehow forgetting that there exists an EDM producer with such name (probably since it's been months since I've last heard of them from only one track they made with US-based Indonesian EDM artist Similar Outskirts) is becoming lobotomy at this point to where the entirety of the name "Focal Flare" would be a secondary alias for "Focus Fire".

But with that, since I've completely changed Flaremon's species from a normal reptile to an entity (Flaremon is and has been my self-insert and mascot behind "Focal Flare"), I knew that a "new era" was bound to happen. From the complexity of my media (music and art) in either doing the most for making things or making things look very complex that comes from who was a kümakara reptilian monster hiding his insignias, to the simplicity of my media in still doing a lot with only either a few steps in the creation process or a few elements to make it full enough that comes from who is now an aurim entity monster showing his insignias.

The FCL part of the alias still references the first part of "Focal Flare", but for an alternative alias of "FCL C0MPLEX", this very much forms a juxtaposition between "simple" and "convoluted" as me trying to make more media that still feels full with only a few things being done to it contradicts the "complex" part of the alias.

9th December 2025

A language with conjugation rules for words of any kind (n., (ad)v., adj., etc...)

For the sake of people's sanity, this is just a random thought I had for a made-up language in my head that anyone can reiterate in something like Lingojam. Even then, this will never be an actual language, hence me not giving it a name. For anyone reading this post, it's not that deep.

Randomly, and during the passing period in university after my second class (which should've started but apparently was postponed since my instructor didn't show up and didn't let us know about it), I was thinking of a fictional language.

The language, though not Spanish, is inspired by the Spanish language where it uses these conjugation rules for present-tense verbs (regular and irregular), but they can be applied to all types of words such as nouns, adjectives, adverbs, and whatnot. The language. 

These conjugation rules apply for each subject in first person (I), second person (you), second person plural (you all) and third person specific ([name]/(s/t)he(y)), first person plural (we), and third person plural (they), similar to those such as the Spanish subjects for yo (1st), tú (2nd informal), usted [él/ella] (2nd formal plural/3rd specific), nosotros/as (1st plural) vosotros/as (2nd Spain), and ustedes [ellos/as] (3rd plural).

Normally, these would apply to mostly present-tense words/phrases because these are more common in those, but you could apply these to past-tense and future-tense words/phrases.